Hi again to you! Iwas like you Dad - it wasn't me that had a problem - it was the rest of the world! Originally, I self-medicated on alsohol until I had a wake-up call and then immersed myseld in work and became a work-a-holic! I used to meet other Vets who seemed to have it all together - now I know they were only faking like myself, because inside I was enduring a personal hell. Someone once said, "Time heals all wounds" but I guess they didn't know what they were talking about - unless you've been there and expereinced it first-hand, then you simply don't know! It was when my older kids began to run of the rails that I knew I had to do something, but what? It wasn't until my wife looked at me one day - with a look I have never seen before or since - and said, "There's something wrong with you. You have to go and see someone to get some help"! I knew she meant business and knew she was right. But who to see? I eventually wound up at the VVCS and sitting with psychologists and psychiatrists who were in need of help themselves! They had me playing with a jig-saw puzzle (supposing I was the odd piece out, I think?); writing down things on paper that then didn't want to see? and all the time trying to find the proverbial needle int he haystack, but never did! So, after about 5-6, I gave them the flick! I haven no confidence in them whatsoever now! After learning what Freud and Jung really believed and knowing the "system" bought it all from them hook line and sinker was enough! What really helped was researching PTSD for myself and talking with mates in the same boat. The farthest back I went was to Thermopylae and the drumming out of the service of one of Alexander the Greats generals - for cowardice as he could no longer bring himself to go back into battle! Following the history thread helped me to realise that I was only "normal" after all! Things are better and thanks again.

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